Rise of the Divine Feminine – Self-Revelation
Monday, July 25th, 2022
by Elizabeth Kirwin
The Meeting Place by Heather Ifversen
As the divine feminine rises in me, I realize how much we need others in order to have self-revelations. Human beings need one another for a variety of reasons. For me, the most important reason right now is self-revelation. We see ourselves through relating to others sometimes. That is how we’ve become an advanced species on earth. Looking at our selves through the lens of another can often bring about epiphanies, like mini concerts in our minds.
Self-doubt can be damaging on many levels. I have been feeling a bit anxious these days and when I speak to other women about my vulnerabilities in the anxiety department, I feel I am not alone. I have a kindred tribe. Many of the same themes I deal with on a daily basis (I am not good enough, or anxious about work or what others think), I share these feelings with my neighbor, my artistic collaborator, my reiki master and others. This allowance for vulnerability gives them permission to reveal part of theirs, too.
Self-revelation is a process helped by others. I receive Reiki from a local practitioner who is so fly. I love her. Here name is Lori Daniels Atkinson and she literally just started out as a Reiki Master. I can’t believe how powerful she is. To see a woman self-actualize is mind blowing for me. It makes me want to dance with joy. Lori is seriously on a path she ignited for herself several months ago. She told me she has always dreamed of being a Reiki Master but just got up the gumption to do it in May. I applaud her honesty. I benefit from her work. I don’t care if she’s new at it. Her freshness gives her an edge a vastly experienced Reiki Master might not have.
So it’s hard for me to relax after a long day of mind work (writing and other matters), but on her table, I am able to do so. Last night I saw (in my mind’s eye) a male guide with long flowing hair. He appeared to me at the beginning of our session and stayed long after the session was completed. His presence (coupled with the heat from her hands and the energy of her heart) was such a comfort to me it made me forget anxiety. I let it all go on the table as I had both presences to help coach me down from a day of self-disbelieving as I call it. This is when you are too hard on your self as you (wrongly) imagine what others are thinking and blow these imaginary thoughts way out of proportion. This leads to despair and anxiety about the world surrounding you.
Receiving Reiki helps me immediately switch gears to one of self-revelation. I am not alone in my anxiety anymore because I have others (including my male guide) to help me through the muddy waters created by overthinking. These waters run deep and can seem overwhelming. Then another steps in and says, “It’s OK. I feel that way sometimes, too. Here’s what I do to make myself feel better.” Since I am wide open to suggestions, it works for me. Using another healer as a sounding board is effective for me. Lori came up with some fantastic suggestions. Lori said she had anxiety in the workplace too, until she realized her thoughts are not an accurate representation of reality. Hers is a difficult job, in caring for a high maintenance disabled child, she does one on one with this child. Well, sometimes she is hard on herself, as if she’s not handling him correctly. There is so much emotional content to doing one on one with a child like this it can certainly have scary moments – this occupation. Then Lori looks around and says, “My boss or co-worker is looking at me funny,” and boom! The anxiety sets in. Lori said she has to discount the thoughts in her own mind and say to herself she doesn’t know what others are thinking really, it’s all in her mind.
Just the act of her being vulnerable in this talk after Reiki, helps to ease my own anxiety. I immediately feel better after she shares these thoughts.
I often act as if I know what others are thinking about me, but it’s not real. It’s a false knowing. Even if you believe you’re clairaudient (as I do) it doesn’t mean you’re always right. Dealing with the thoughts of others, rather than your own, is dangerous territory. What are you doing assuming you know what others think? Unless they verbally tell you what they think – you don’t know! It’s better to assume others thoughts are not your own unless they tell you so.
Now, when someone tells you their thoughts, you better listen. Then this person is opening up the channels of communication. It’s time to perk up your ears and do some deep listening. In Lori’s case, she was sharing how she goes about her own self-care. She told me it’s not good to imagine the thoughts of others. You must discount this thought pattern and (hopefully) replace it with something positive that is grounded in your reality. For example, “I am good enough and I care enough to do things correctly with this child who is in my charge. I take charge of this child’s care and I do it excellently.” This immediately stops the fake thoughts that overtake the mind and reframes the experience into something more positive and life affirming. I call this act one of self-care. It involves trust in oneself and the individual voice. It implicitly involves the trust of another. I mean, why not trust the Reiki master. It takes a mountain of trust just to get on her table.
A neighbor shared with me she had anxiety over social situations such as parties. This amazed me. I thought she was the most confident woman in the world – and she is – only when she’s at home. When she’s about to go out to a party or public event – things get messy. That’s because she’s worried about what others think about her and how they interpret her clothes, here hairstyle, the gift she brings. Immediately the imaginary voice of another’s criticism comes into play. That’s right – it’s imagined fear because she hasn’t even left the house yet. Anxiety sets in and it’s scary to now go out to the party because suddenly – she is being judged by many other people. STOP! That’s what she has to do, is re-examine her own mind and see that it’s just fear and imagined thoughts standing in the way of socializing. She makes it out the door to the party. She also added that women of a certain age seem to have anxiety and it could be hormonal.
That was a huge relief to me – to hear my neighbor’s commentary on social anxiety and how she deals with it. As a middle-aged woman, she realizes this anxiety set in at a certain age. Was it due to lack of self-confidence? NO! It was due to the body changing on a hormonal level, leaving a woman open to certain vulnerabilities. The vulnerable word is key here. Everyone must be vulnerable at some point. It makes sense that we all are not as strong as we profess to be all the time and the way we self-confidently project ourselves into the world even when we feel like shit – this is not accurate. It’s a false self-projection if you’re feeling anxiety and come off as over confident.
Being vulnerable allows one to learn about the self through others. Vulnerability is a key to knowledge of self, because now others can share their vulnerabilities. It’s an equal exchange that occurs. There must be an exchange and it has to feel equal.
This is how I experience my own healing – by learning how others heal themselves. It gives me ideas. The main idea is that my own thoughts, just because I had them, are not always accurate. Sometimes there is an error in my own thought patterns that I MUST correct. Without self-correction the anxiety goes on and on. Who needs that? NOT ME. I want to deal with the anxiety monster in a safe, effective way. My friends in the world are teaching me how to do this. I see I am not the only one dealing with anxiety. I deeply listen to others thoughts on this topic and the anxiety lessens. I am out of anxiety and in the energy of self-revelation. Self-revelation is a sacred place to be. It implies deep thinking has occurred. So has a comparison (a healthy one) of self to others.
There’s a real emotional exchange that opens up from being vulnerable.
